Comments on: mother guilt http://cribchronicles.com/2006/12/11/58/ i will NOT scribble on the children Thu, 09 Feb 2012 13:32:24 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: bon http://cribchronicles.com/2006/12/11/58/comment-page-1/#comment-2812 bon Fri, 15 Dec 2006 12:18:15 +0000 http://cribchronicles.com/?p=58#comment-2812 yeh...it's amazing all the emotion still there under the skin...time has done a reasonable job of healing me too, but like i said, i wasn't expecting to end up in Paediatric Recussitation and when we did and then i recognized the monitors (same as Finn had, Oscar's never been on one before), wow, i really panicked. i actually mis-answered a couple of the questions the nurse was asking because i was tearing up and trying to get myself under control. it was as scared as i've been since O was safely born. i think next time i get Dave to drop us off at the emergency i'll let him come in with us rather than sending him off to buy Christmas lights. :) yeh…it’s amazing all the emotion still there under the skin…time has done a reasonable job of healing me too, but like i said, i wasn’t expecting to end up in Paediatric Recussitation and when we did and then i recognized the monitors (same as Finn had, Oscar’s never been on one before), wow, i really panicked. i actually mis-answered a couple of the questions the nurse was asking because i was tearing up and trying to get myself under control. it was as scared as i’ve been since O was safely born. i think next time i get Dave to drop us off at the emergency i’ll let him come in with us rather than sending him off to buy Christmas lights. :)

]]> By: Tracy Chiasson-lawlor http://cribchronicles.com/2006/12/11/58/comment-page-1/#comment-2637 Tracy Chiasson-lawlor Wed, 13 Dec 2006 01:59:46 +0000 http://cribchronicles.com/?p=58#comment-2637 Hey Bon, I think that darn cold is circulating around the island - Katelyn was admitted to the hospital on November 29th and we spent 2 nights in our old stomping grounds at the Prince County Hospital. Time has healed me ....I forgot what it was like to rely on monitors and to care so much about what her O2 Sats might be at any particular time during the day... Of course every emotion that I had pushed far back in my unconscious came flooding back to me twofold - Katelyn had 88-91 O2 stats and she was admitted immediately. Like O, she was on masks 4 times a day, Prednisone and antibiotics...She's fine - she's finished with her masks and is back to her normal, active self. Hope O recovers quickly !!! Hey Bon,
I think that darn cold is circulating around the island – Katelyn was admitted to the hospital on November 29th and we spent 2 nights in our old stomping grounds at the Prince County Hospital.
Time has healed me ….I forgot what it was like to rely on monitors and to care so much about what her O2 Sats might be at any particular time during the day… Of course every emotion that I had pushed far back in my unconscious came flooding back to me twofold – Katelyn had 88-91 O2 stats and she was admitted immediately. Like O, she was on masks 4 times a day, Prednisone and antibiotics…She’s fine – she’s finished with her masks and is back to her normal, active self.
Hope O recovers quickly !!!

]]> By: Amanda http://cribchronicles.com/2006/12/11/58/comment-page-1/#comment-2580 Amanda Tue, 12 Dec 2006 14:01:06 +0000 http://cribchronicles.com/?p=58#comment-2580 Hey there Bon; Don't let the guilt riddle you too much, if you can help it. The scariness of it all still haunts me. When Geoffrey was three I went out shopping, and the day care called because they thought that Geoffrey had strep throat. He was picked up by my then husband, and I showed hom shortly after to find that my baby's (3) lower jaw was distending and tongue pushing forward to the point that it was starting to look like a deformity. I took him to the hospital and he was immediately whisked into resussitation and put through CT scans to discover an air pocket behind his airpipe, pushing everything from that point up forward, while everything below it was staying still, effectively beginning to shut down his respitory system. It was horrible, and he spent a week in ICU, and I had not caught it sooner because I wanted to shop with a friend Annnd when he was 5 I woke up to find him on the couch one morning, he said that he wasn't feeling well and wanted air. I asked him if he wanted to come cuddle, and he said no (the TV was in front of him) I went to lay back down and got up an hour later to find him unconcious with his left side paralyzed, and he had wet himself. We couldn't wake him up for more than 3 minutes at a time, and rushed him to the hospital 3 minutes away. again he was whisked into the same area across from the bed he spent time in when he was 3,another week in hospital (He woke up after8 hours to stay awake, and got the use of his left side back after 24 hours) 9 more months of tests to find out if it was a stroke, seizure etc, and we didn't see it happen, because I was dumb enough to lay back down and didn't see what happened. It's crippling, the guilt and you feel so incompetent. To get past it, know that you did the right thing, and faster than a stranger would because you know that child better than anyone. And remember, because you took action, your miracle of a child is still with you today. Love to you and O. Hey there Bon;

Don’t let the guilt riddle you too much, if you can help it. The scariness of it all still haunts me.

When Geoffrey was three I went out shopping, and the day care called because they thought that Geoffrey had strep throat. He was picked up by my then husband, and I showed hom shortly after to find that my baby’s (3) lower jaw was distending and tongue pushing forward to the point that it was starting to look like a deformity. I took him to the hospital and he was immediately whisked into resussitation and put through CT scans to discover an air pocket behind his airpipe, pushing everything from that point up forward, while everything below it was staying still, effectively beginning to shut down his respitory system. It was horrible, and he spent a week in ICU, and I had not caught it sooner because I wanted to shop with a friend

Annnd when he was 5 I woke up to find him on the couch one morning, he said that he wasn’t feeling well and wanted air. I asked him if he wanted to come cuddle, and he said no (the TV was in front of him) I went to lay back down and got up an hour later to find him unconcious with his left side paralyzed, and he had wet himself. We couldn’t wake him up for more than 3 minutes at a time, and rushed him to the hospital 3 minutes away. again he was whisked into the same area across from the bed he spent time in when he was 3,another week in hospital (He woke up after8 hours to stay awake, and got the use of his left side back after 24 hours) 9 more months of tests to find out if it was a stroke, seizure etc, and we didn’t see it happen, because I was dumb enough to lay back down and didn’t see what happened.

It’s crippling, the guilt and you feel so incompetent. To get past it, know that you did the right thing, and faster than a stranger would because you know that child better than anyone. And remember, because you took action, your miracle of a child is still with you today.

Love to you and O.

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