Wed 4 Apr 2007
lilacs out of the dead land
Posted by bon under milestone stuff
[10] Comments
in the midst of a bustling, disorganized, busted flat kinda week, i’ve been given something lovely.
Little Monkies gave me this 
for this.
be still my heart.
in prefacing her nomination, Fran wrote about the sorrows of April, and the strange coincidences and convergences of birth and death that are April to me too. i’ve been ruminating on my own version of the grim and beautiful Eliot line about April being the cruellest month as it looms full of anniversaries for me…joyful ones, and ones of unspeakable loss. but Fran has said most of what i was trying to weave words around, and with great grace.
and i am not quite ready to say more, except thank you to her…and to all of you…for listening. here, i write what i cannot say anywhere else. and in doing so, there is healing.
in blogging, comes spring.
April 5th, 2007 at 4:19 am
bon, there are so many of your posts that deserve those awards…
i’m glad you find writing your posts a form of healing. i’m sure many find healing in reading them…
April 5th, 2007 at 6:41 am
Well deserved Bon. That post is one I remember. Considering how crappola my memory is these days (like it was ever any good!) that’s saying something. I do not understand the origin or ‘how’ of these awards, but well done Bon, well done.
April 5th, 2007 at 11:18 am
congratulations, bon. and it WAS a Perfect Post.
April 5th, 2007 at 11:24 am
Congrats! Much deserved…
April 5th, 2007 at 1:35 pm
bon, i completely understand where you are on the work front. to go back, and have to spend time away from your precious O, it would truly have to be the ‘perfect’ job… unfortunately, getting a ‘professional’ job, something in the ‘field’, something ‘challenging’, is likely to take you away from O more than would a job with a less responsibility… how do we strike a balance here??
and no, i don’t play the guitar. i own one (have since about 1999 when i decided i would learn to play) but it’s in australia. i also bought one i korea, fully intending to teach myself… hmmm…third time lucky??? i think m has one somewhere…
April 5th, 2007 at 2:06 pm
Congratulations Bon. If anyone deserves it, you do.
April 5th, 2007 at 2:35 pm
Well deserved Bon.
I’m glad you have discovered the healing powers of blogging…
April 5th, 2007 at 3:18 pm
Fran is a real world true friend of mine — and she is even MORE wonderful than she seems on her blog, I can assure you.
Congratulations on the Perfect Post Award. That was the first post I read by you (forwarded by Fran) and you became an instant daily read – and I am so glad.
April 9th, 2007 at 3:41 pm
I understand your confusion. I’ve never felt as good about myself as a SAHM unless I’m making money. But it’s never enough. And I’ve been here so long that I’m used to it and now I’m afraid to get back out there full time. Sending you good thoughts.
April 13th, 2007 at 2:00 am
I totally relate.
If it’s any consolation (and, let’s be honest, it’s not) women all over North America feel your pain. (I guess we’re lucky in our plight compared to women in a lot of other parts of the world; what I really wanted to say was, Women around the world feel your pain. : )
Anyway, I have decided to make a world-tour of my own by visiting all the sites near my own on the BlogHer blog roll! (Crib Ceiling – we’re just one off!)
Loved visiting; I’ll be back!