Fri 13 Jul 2007
time
Posted by bon under mama-baby stuff, pondering stuff
the days at work slip faster than days at home did
my deepest resources 
of patience
mines of tunneling to sustain self
and small one too
less taxed now, if lonelier
for touch
but we are both content
so far as i can tell
so far as he can tell
my arms more patient
greedy now when he is in them
still time for playing blocks and touching noses
and i exhale
relieved
i can forgive that this skin fits
these work clothes please me, yes.
but the wheel of time spins by me
careening almost greasy
it has been four weeks already
i wonder will i come home tomorrow and find him grown into a rockstar overnight…?













July 13th, 2007 at 1:47 am
What a terrific, gorgeous, rockin’ photo. And a lovely ditty to accompany it.
I’m so glad things are going well. This working-out-of-the-house sounds so restorative that I am wondering whether I should try it…
July 13th, 2007 at 1:57 am
“My arms more patient.” YES.
July 13th, 2007 at 2:07 am
i thought maybe you’d feel this way…change is good. you are good. here’s that big enormous hug right back at you.
July 13th, 2007 at 2:09 am
That. Is a child who wants to play. I see a Baby Taylor in his near future!
July 13th, 2007 at 2:12 am
What do you mean grown into a rock star? The picture plainly indicates he IS a rock star. Can I buy the album? Autographed, if possible.
Seriously, I am glad you are comfortable in the working thing. It was always something I knew I wanted, and it helped that JD was home with Monkey when I first started working. It’s great that this is working out for your family. I am really happy for you.
P.S. I still find myself needing to, on occasion (read: couple of times a day), hunt down the smaller person that lives in this house to get one of those sweet little squeezes in. So it doesn’t really pass. And while she IS one very busy dudette, she is not, so far as I know, earning a living yet. If that helps at all.
July 13th, 2007 at 4:49 am
This is so wistful and beautiful and *sigh*
July 13th, 2007 at 4:51 am
Beautiful post. You capture what you’re feeling so well, and that picture is priceless. I hope you don’t mind, I posted it on Mommy Blog Round-up, a site that showcases the best daily mom blog posts that I (and others) come across. Please let me know if you’d rather I take it down.
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July 13th, 2007 at 10:17 am
Your very own, personal, genetically generated “David Bowie” and a fulfilling job to boot….can this get any better Bon??!
July 13th, 2007 at 12:06 pm
The days do go by so much faster, don’t they? I’m not as comfortable as you are with that, but I do so love the homecoming.
And he’s a leftie guitar player! Go, O!
July 13th, 2007 at 1:30 pm
Well, you’ve done it again, Bon! This is pretty much exactly how I feel: glad to be at work, but so glad to come home. More patient but also more wistful. How well you’ve written this!
And, if you look carefully at the photo, the ribbon plant seems to make a little baby mohawk on O’s head — rock star hair!
July 13th, 2007 at 2:53 pm
That wheel of time is greasy and I swear sometimes it lifts off the ground and flies through the air, it’s so freaking fast. I so understand. Beautifully put.
July 13th, 2007 at 6:33 pm
thank you for this.
I’ve been home far too long, knowing I need a little balance in my life, but putting it off because of uncertainties.
it’s no way to live.
July 13th, 2007 at 7:04 pm
what a stunning photo ~ adorable!! definitely a rockstar in the making
you sound happy and relaxed and yes .. balanced … good stuff!!
July 13th, 2007 at 7:15 pm
I’m glad that you and your little rock star have adjusted to your working at a paying job.
July 13th, 2007 at 7:48 pm
Truly beautiful because I understand exactly what you mean and how you feel. The work clothes do feel good on, but those night time hugs suddenly become so much more.
I love the way his little toes are curled under, so sweet!
July 14th, 2007 at 12:37 am
What an amazing picture–his mouth a little open in wonder and concentration.
beautiful…
July 14th, 2007 at 1:40 am
Awesome poem, Bon; so glad life feels right to you at this time. Great photo - time just flies, indeed. Hugs!
July 14th, 2007 at 3:11 pm
You said how I feel so very well. I’ve been trying to find the perfect job to go back to, tired of working from home, ready for something new, but nothing seems to fit. Perhaps it’s still too early for me.
July 15th, 2007 at 12:39 am
Lovely. And yes, it appears he is becoming a rockstar - catch that crazy, plant looking hair!
July 15th, 2007 at 12:11 pm
It goes too fast regardless of being home or away.
They love us despite all of that I think….
July 15th, 2007 at 6:39 pm
you know who is a rockstar? YOU.
this was so lovely, bon. . .
July 16th, 2007 at 12:20 am
This is beautiful. The picture, the sentiment. I fear time too.
July 18th, 2007 at 4:59 pm
Just wait until the first time he sings a song for you….