Archive for August, 2008

Saturday, August 30th, 2008

name of the rose, and other mysteries

we went out to the market this morning. upon return, in amongst the weekend flyers dragged in from the porch advertising marvellous Walmart specials and bizarre lawn ornaments i can’t imagine anyone wanting to buy, i found a book.  an apparently new book, with price tag still attached.  not the sort of book that usually […]

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Thursday, August 28th, 2008

star-crossed

dear readers… do you notice dates?  ascribe signficance to them?  see numbers dancing in front of your eyes like mad Rockettes?  subscribe, on some superstitious, instinctual level, to old adages about children born on particular days of the week? i appear to.  particularly when childbirth is looming.  given my history this makes me shrink in […]

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Monday, August 25th, 2008

full circle

ah perspective.  when i was in junior high, the only English teacher i ever really disliked taught me an invaluable lesson…ostensibly about fiction and short stories, but really about living, about the art of narrativizing and understanding one’s own life.  Perspective, he intoned, in a faux Oxford accent, is all in where you’re looking from.  […]

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Thursday, August 21st, 2008

mail order groom up for grabs

all quiet on the cervical front, friends.  this evening’s literary reading at ye local library was uninterrupted by the waters of Babylon.  i even laughed without peeing myself…banner day. have i ever mentioned that i live two doors from the Dairy Queen?  and that i have something of an, erm, sugar fetish?  i came home […]

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Tuesday, August 19th, 2008

comic? relief?

yesterday morning, about 4:15, i woke up with a start. heartburn.  pee break.  adrenaline.  chomped down a few Tums, had some water, tried to quiet my mind, to plump the pillow and slide back into sleep.  no chance.  got up and watered all my plants instead. nesting?  nah.  first day of a week-long writers’ conference.  […]

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Sunday, August 17th, 2008

love is a tired symphony

we left Korea for good that winter. the fall beforehand was golden and rushed, one of those queerly vivid transition epochs where the body and mind are open and receptive, future utterly unknown and thus all changes possible answers in masquerade.  it is heady, that hurtle towards the break, and for me it was a […]

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Wednesday, August 13th, 2008

on fear

your comments shine through my screen like benedictions.  the overflow of truth and thoughtfulness and humour, raw and warm, calms me, strengthens.  i bask.  i eat up ideas, cross-referencing, googling hungrily.  call answered. i sit humbled, grateful.  you took me by surprise.  i did not know, not like this, that the well ran so deep […]

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Monday, August 11th, 2008

what goes in must come out

the longer this pregnancy continues with merciful uneventfulness, the more amazed i am.  and the more nervous.  a new and different low-grade panic wells up in my gut these days…not miscarriage, not genetic disorders, not uber-prematurity and brain bleeds and oscillating ventilators. just…birth. there’s clearly got to be a birthin’ around here sometime soon. (me […]

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Saturday, August 9th, 2008

smoke on the water

pssst.  i have a secret. i think i’m having a fabulous summer. yeh, i’m more or less unemployed, with legs as weak as paper matchsticks and a belly the size of a Volkswagen.  yeh, laundry is frequently my most impressive daily accomplishment.  and stool softeners and Tums are my dearest, most beloved companions these days.  […]

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Wednesday, August 6th, 2008

embodiment

with the release from bedrest and my fledgling return to civil society come privileges.  i can walk…slowly.  i can dance…sorta.  i can march out at any time of day or night and procure my own Nibs cake (insert favourite heartburn-inducing poison here). sure, the price is high.  anyone who’s ever been pregnant will attest that […]

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