Thu 28 Aug 2008
do you notice dates? ascribe signficance to them? see numbers dancing in front of your eyes like mad Rockettes? subscribe, on some superstitious, instinctual level, to old adages about children born on particular days of the week?
i appear to. particularly when childbirth is looming. given my history this makes me shrink in shame, as i realize that the day and date of my child’s birth is, generally speaking, hardly of massive significance. i’m sure i’ll come to like whatever date she comes on, because it will be hers, and all that marvellous rational truthiness. sure. but i have nonetheless come to the uncomfortable conclusion that i am a closet flake, and possibly some kind of subconscious but full-blown proverbial nut. i have dates flit through my mind so many times a day that i am considering getting a turban and stitching paper stars to it, hiring myself out as a swami. feel free to contact me if you would like my completely ungrounded but very heartfelt opinions about auspicious dates looming over the next, oh, three or four or five weeks or so…i will be happy to consult the litter box for signs in the turds, and whatnot.
see…much as i wanted to make it to September with this pregnancy, to try to get as close as possible to a healthy term infant…i’ve never been totally keen on a September baby. late September, dandy, if i could get there…but the first part of the month? mixed feelings. this is not my good sense talking. i know many fine people who were September babies…half the people in our families, quite literally, have early to mid-September birthdays. that’s part of the problem. we’re stuffed full of Virgos ’round these parts, and Virgos have many honourable qualities…among them tidiness, a virtue above all others. also, i’m aware that just in the unlikely case astrology isn’t simply an interesting personality assessment tool but my child’s total future sewn up and written in her stars, moon sign and rising sign still mean more than the actual sun sign under which one is born. see? i’m almost an informed flake. but for some reason i can’t quite put my finger on, i’m still not super thrilled about the idea of my child sharing a birthday with most of the noble Virgos to whom we are related or befriended. i’m also not wild about her coming on any of the defunct wedding anniversaries and significant death anniversaries that occur in our small, immediate circle during early-mid September…nor do i especially like dates with a 5 in them…thus leaving about four separate days between the first of September and the twentieth on which i’d be happy to see her arrive. or at least of which the inner crazy swami Bonnie – whom i cannot seem to shut up – would approve.
i just found out that for two of these dates, my OB will be off work, having surgery herself. as i want her there for the delivery more than i actually want to assuage my bizarre obsessions, those dates are now added to the long list of Dates On Which I Will Keep Legs Crossed.
as of this afternoon, my OB’s scheduled my cerclage removal for one of the others…which just happened to bethe date she’s on hospital duty that week. We’re doing the removal there, at L&D, in case the loss of the stitch sends me straight into labour. removal has been set, folks, for September 10th.
which would be gorgeous, close to 37 weeks, even the 10/09/08 birthdate utterly cool if you follow the Canadian and European day/month/year system…but, um, it’s a Wednesday, folks.
and the old rhyme says, Wednesday’s child is full of woe.
seriously, full of woe? how can i set my hopes on a birthdate that will doom my offspring to being full of woe? i mean, Tuesday is “full of grace, Friday’s “loving and giving”…how the heck did poor Wednesday get stuck being full of woe? i have been holding my breath all Wednesday long for months, now. it would feel like bad parenthood, almost, to wish my child into the world on a Wednesday with that kind of prognosis.
damn, it’s not easy being crazy.
(and the 11th and 12th are already crossed off the calendar as taken…so, if Saturday the 13th doesn’t work, i may just have to try keeping that poor old cervix closed until well into Libra.)
what day of the week were you born? your kids? do any of these signification systems – be they planets, rhymes, or other superstitions – surrounding birth weigh on your mind? are Wednesday’s children really full of more than their fair share of woe? should i forget about the birth entirely and go check myself into a pink padded cell?