Archive for April, 2009

Wednesday, April 29th, 2009

sun in Taurus, moon in the wind

on Sunday afternoon, at the park with the kids, my bracelet broke. online friends made the bracelet for me shortly after Posey was born last fall. an ornate art deco clasp, and three strands of silver beading, each with the name and birthstone of one of my children. Oscar & Finn, April, crystals. Josephine, September, […]

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Tuesday, April 28th, 2009

little miracles

with  trepidation, i’m planning to send this letter later today…to the hospital where Finn was born and where i did all the bedrest with O and the legion of ultrasounds with Posey. i’m struck every single year by the ridiculous way in which this fine institution handles its fundraising. i’m not a fan of telethons […]

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Sunday, April 26th, 2009

that joke isn’t funny anymore

she jumps, our bouncing Josephine, all grins and glee and baby cackles.  it’s contagious, that laugh.  she’s a bouncing demon. we held off on the Jolly Jumper until the up-down of her stout legs every time we grasped her hands made it clear that she was more than ready and would run off with a […]

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Monday, April 20th, 2009

the cusp of three

a year ago, the only word combination he could utter was “no, mama” and its paternal equivalent. “bah” stood for ball, bear, book. yesterday, we perched at the table and he piped up, “…so. this morning i wouldn’t let Daddy and Grandpapa play with my castle. i only wanted to play with Grandmaman. i took […]

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Thursday, April 16th, 2009

uh, i didn’t inhale?

we were high high up in the nosebleed seats, view almost blocked by the tinny square of the spotlight snaking down in front of the giant monitor where Neil Young rocked out like an aging hobbit, utterly possessed. he was fabulous. i was rapt. my acoustic inclinations make me a far more avid fan of […]

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Monday, April 13th, 2009

the cruellest month

the blog turned three the other day. and it snowed.  huh.  fuck you too, April. i  could swear i’ve had no time to bake any celebratory blogoversary virtual cupcakes this year, except…erm, they’re virtual.  practically instant. perhaps it just feels like the circles we run in out here are too choked with sadness and fear […]

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Tuesday, April 7th, 2009

two hearts

there’s this little girl i want to meet someday. her name is Lily. she was four weeks old yesterday. her parents live here, in this smallest of capital cities. i don’t know them…though in the newpaper clippings they look vaguely familiar, as if perhaps i’ve brushed by them in a grocery store aisle or a […]

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Thursday, April 2nd, 2009


every experience is a learning experience…just not always in the way you expect. if i could tell the interviewers from yesterday what i learned about myself in that three-and-a-half hour marathon of self-promotion, it was this: i am still learning. applying for a position with the federales is a lesson in literacies, in thinking on […]

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