Archive for July, 2009

Friday, July 31st, 2009


back a few years ago, when i was still frequently startled to discover that there were other people out there in this online thingy box, i woke up one morning to find i’d been given an award. i was more delighted than was strictly necessary, but the world of memes and blings was still a […]

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Sunday, July 26th, 2009

where i am

woke up yesterday to a July morning so damp and raw i had to swathe the kids in sweatshirts, jeans and socks just so we could huddle in our early morning stupor without getting the collective shivers. it’s not that we were tenting, or even in a cottage.  just at home, in our stolid old […]

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Friday, July 17th, 2009

i prefer pleasant

i was angry when i slipped the note into the dark maw of her desk, around the rim of chewed, dried gum. furtively, i shoved the paper deep. i remember the feel of it leaving my hand, its sharply crumpled edges, the not-quite-moment-of-hesitation.  i let go. and then i stood and walked away. i don’t think […]

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Thursday, July 9th, 2009

days of wine & roses

soon there will be no baby in this house. she is blooming, this Posey, turning into a short person whose only speed is full ON and who goes from chewing on a shoe to sheer tragic starvation and an uncanny impersonation of a woman in labour in four seconds flat, all smiles and contentment and mmm, […]

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Saturday, July 4th, 2009


he is three and i swear he shines. this child i never imagined, my funny blond curly-headed boy who looks full-sprung from his father’s mother’s side of the family, the child who came into our lives in our deepest grief and whom my most secretbrokenself feared i might never fully claim…this Oscar of mine bursts […]

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