Archive for April, 2010

Thursday, April 29th, 2010

if i had a fairy godmother

five years ago tonight i’d been in the same hospital room without leaving for more than two weeks. friends brought Lebanese food¬†for supper, we laughed and ate. one commented lovingly on my little belly, which was finally blossoming past the pudge stage to a belatedly discernable bump. i talked to Dave on the phone: he […]

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Wednesday, April 21st, 2010


four years ago, right about now, we left for the hospital. a little late, as it turned out. i’d been stretched out on the futon upstairs, practicing my breathing, hope a thing with feathers in my throat. i’d sat at the island in the kitchen, perched on a stool, writing in my journal. i’d broadcast […]

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Sunday, April 11th, 2010


four years ago today, at the rolltop desk in the upstairs den, i opened my old laptop – long since gone to Jesus, as has its replacement – and wrote my very first blog post. welcome to the crib, i warbled tentatively, voice new-born and flippantly uncertain. i’d grabbed the first name for the blog […]

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Tuesday, April 6th, 2010


i was dragging two kids and some bags in the door. an envelope stuck out, lemon yellow, not the business kind. a belated Easter card, i thought, or an early birthday card for Oscar. i pulled it from the box, went to shuffle it under the electricity bill. then i saw the writing. and the […]

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