Sun 2 May 2010
i have seen the future, baby
Posted by bon under pondering stuff, social media meta stuff
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when i started working at an intersection of the fields of education and technology about twelve years back, my then-boss taught me the phrase early adopter. she was a proud, flag-waving version of the breed, a proselytizer of The New. she had a PalmPilot, with that little stylus i could never figure out how people managed not to lose. i disdained the thing, thought of it as conspicuous consumption. i could barely keep track of my $8 daytimer with the vinyl cover.
i’ll never be an early adopter. even if i try.
it takes time for me to learn to love a thing, an object: my appreciation is the kind that builds only over time. historical time, glacial time, no matter – when i hold a thing in my hands, it becomes for me a portal to its personal history. if it has none, i have nothing to attach to; it has no context for me. the patina of age is full of stories: the hows and whys of a particular place and time. i like the cultural trajectory of use-value, the sense of how hands touched objects and what they used them for. fingerprints are romance.
is there a cultural opposite to the early adopter? can i be the maudlin clinger?
my real soft spot is for the utterly obsolete.
i am a rest home for dead technologies. my blog header sports the image of an art deco-era typewriter: i own one. it is my grandmother’s vintage finger-chewer, and it sits proudly in a closet, waiting for some mythical me to unspool a bottle of absinthe and write my great novel. less grandly, we have a VCR. and a Discman, which i can still be seen using. you should see the looks them young whippersnappers get when they clap eyes on that baby. in my freezer, until only last year, sat a carton of Kodak 35 mm film. i bought it at a Costco in South Korea – cheap, but not quite cheap enough to throw out – sometime in 2003. who doesn’t need film? erm, yeh. i hand-imported the box back to Canada when i moved in January 2005. those rolls of film were better-travelled than most people.
when i finally let them go to their great kodachrome reward, it wasn’t out of any rational recognition that film had jumped the shark. rather it was out of avoidance, because every time i opened the freezer i felt guilty staring the box in the eye. i didn’t want the film to know it was dead.
i didn’t want to admit, for some reason, that i would likely never again wind a roll of cellulose into the back of a camera, or that my children would grow up finding the process as foreign as hitching up a buggy. whoa, Nelly. the world really does change in a blink.
and then all these fascinating artifacts clutter up our space, obsolescent but marked all over with fingerprints.
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in the four years i’ve spent out here in the blogosphere, i’ve seen a lot of models and trends in social media boom and bust. remember memes? lolcats? the tender etiquette of blogrolls? ah yes. weren’t we cute?
(yes, i am likely the very last person on Teh Interwebs to have a blogroll. and it is sadly out of date. hush. i like to think of it as vintage.)
in gazing back through time at my VCR and my typewriter and my defunct Pentax K-1000, i don’t see Sodom & Gomorrah, a charnel-mess of sin and misery receding in the distance. nor do i see us striding inexorably forward into progress. sure, i like my digital SLR very much, and this fancy-pants MacBookPro and iTunes and all the other privileges that are my particular riches of time and place and class and living with an Educational Technologies Professional. i appreciate the affordances of these current technologies. but i appreciate in them the very same things that i love in my boneyard of the dead and cast-off: the fingerprints they make possible.
blogging’s fingerprint has changed, dramatically, over the past 3 or 4 years. sure, we’ve been told since at least Christmas 2008 that blogging is dead as a doornail. still, plenty of us do it. and there are people who started only when the death knell was proclaimed who still seem to be making a damn fine time of it. some, perhaps even a living.
when i first ventured out into wild social world of blogging, the parenting corner of the blogosphere – which was then still a relatively coherent entity – was like a hopping mixer dance on the first weekend of summer camp. connections were personal, often intense, and frequently had a tinge of wonder about them. i found you! we exhaled, collectively, and it was glorious. the playing field wasn’t flat – some people were obviously well-established and incredibly popular by late 2006 – but it all still seemed to be mostly about self-expression, rooms of one own. and for those who valued that kind of voice & space, this world seemed to be a democratizing agent beyond wildest dreams; a community of relative peers performing identity and parenthood in the 21st century.
then, subtly, the game changed. the model moved from summer camp to conference. one’s blog became a business, whether one happened to notice or not. and if one didn’t, one was – without doing anything differently – suddenly missing out.
months ago, on twitter, i proposed that maybe the term “blogging” has run its course. we don’t call all writers by the same handle: we have novelists and tech writers and humourists and PR people. increasingly, i suspect bloggers might be a less fraught community – or rather, group of communities, overlapping – if we had different names for the things people do in their online spaces, some for recompense, some for reputation, some for craft, some for the sheer hell of it.
the conversation around blogging – and particularly around mommyblogs – has monetized. and with that, the relatively egalitarian conversational field that existed into 2007 has fractured into a multiplicity of communities who lack any coherent centre other than the fact that their writers make up what advertisers tend to believe is a coherent market. we still make connections, often deep and personal ones. but they begin in networking, now, as much as in any enthusiastic recognition of self. those are not necessarily opposites – but they serve different ends. and i wonder about that.
i know i’m a dinosaur: i’ve clung to my narrative, non-commercial model for the blog just as i cling to the idea that my grandmother’s typewriter is funkalicious. for me, it works, mostly because i always figured i could capitalize more reputationally than monetarily from the kinds of writing i’m good at. i build my body of work here, and someday…who knows? i am not so proud or dumb or rich as to be averse to money. but i don’t relate to this blog primarily as an entrepreneur, and as such, i am still a relic of a former era, an artifact of blogging’s history. most writers who start out on the internet today have no desire whatsoever to be like me: they’ll either build their own site painstakingly as a business success through advertising and sponsorships and giveaways and carefully cultivated network relations, or they’ll write their hearts out – but with an eye to being picked up by a commercial site with SEO potentiality and paid for their words through the visibility of their name and the development of their cred.
the room of one’s own is supposed to turn a profit, these days.
i want to know what gets lost, in that shift, and what it means. i want to know if there’s a tradeoff, and what it says about our culture. i want to know if it’s good, and how…and for whom.
over the next three years, i’ll research social media and study technologies and trends and futures and what they all might mean for education and culture in the 21st century. for a dyed-in-the-wool Lot’s wife, wistful and salty, forever looking back, it’s a funny choice. but it’s what gets left behind that interests me.
i want your input on this little corner of that conversation. pretty please. tell me what’s changed about blogging in however long you’ve been doing it, or reading. tell me what’s changed in the community compared to your original expectations and hopes. tell me i’m wrong, or crazy, or hopelessly outdated. tell me why i should advertise, or write that review about feminine crotch spray i got pitched a few months back. tell me about writing giveaways, and if it’s hard or easy. tell me why you read, and what you think you’ll see from the internet and the blogosphere (if such a thing exists) a decade from now. tell me what difference this whole evolving world has made in your life.
tell me what fingerprints you think you’re leaving.
i may just do a dissertation on it all…my own little artifact.
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May 3rd, 2010 at 12:02 am
Hmmm… I’ll have to think about this. I am not sure how much I have to offer. I recognize that wonder of finding that you mentioned. I don’t know, though. I think I just leave an insignificant relic. A relic that doesn’t leave enough clues for some future blog anthropologist to discern more than my uneven, unfocused posts.
There’d have to be something of a sideways lurch over to Twitter to see what I got out of blogging that transferred to Twitter: Relationships. And that makes sense. I’m such a relationship oriented person. I make EVERYTHING about them.
Hmmm… Still thinking.
May 3rd, 2010 at 12:23 am
I believe in the renaming! I BELIEVE. (let’s find differing labels than just blogger)
I had a huge breakthrough today about new libraries when I saw the http://www.womenslibrary.org.uk/ Enough with the libraries by locale.. I have been inching towards this sort of commune structure since really focussing on my role as a K12 video librarian.. practically the last in BC.
I dream of Iona.. precariously carrying into the next cycle of knowledge what I can care for in my cloister. What rests with me in a time of inordinate change in an environment of abject hickdom.
But I digress — see also: http://motherwoman.blogspot.com/2010/05/end-of-assvice.html
And, I have in my garage the antique sewing table I converted to a computer workstation during my masters degree. These machines are a ripe corollary to the appliances that stiched the hems on the to do lists of my grandmother and yours. I think I mentioned that before? but generally, and always, I’m with ya.
May 3rd, 2010 at 2:23 am
Hi Bon.
I write to please myself and keep in touch with those who matter to me. Family, friends, and yes, friends I’ve made over the blogosphere (looking forward to when you have a new term for that.)
No ads, rarely a product review. I get pitched a lot, but I like to pick my topics as they come to mind, when they come to mind, and product content doesn’t match anything else I usually write. So, I could probably be making a bigger name for myself, but whatever. I like the people I’ve met, and I like what I do.
May 3rd, 2010 at 8:16 am
The word you’re looking for might just be luddite dear. ;)
I’ve seen too many wonderful voices stop because they just couldn’t deal with the BS floating around with it all. Needing to jostle for air online, fight for readers on twitter, hope they have the right feed on RSS, make friends with “the right” people…exhausting for many. But I think with the crater split in the topic itself, in blogging, people can find their niche. I don’t much read popular, monetized blogs-never have, but I’ve found the content has, well, become even less thrilling. But then I find the odd person in your comments or on Twitter and I remember the excitement of a new voice.
So it turns over, sheds it’s skin, and starts again. Like everything else.
May 3rd, 2010 at 9:18 am
The greater blogosphere (does anyone say that? Am I a total dork? Answer: yes) is completely alien to me. I started to write so I could get my sad out without it bothering anyone. I very recently joined twitter and it introduced me to the british mommyblogger scene which, frankly, terrifies me. They’re all ads and anecdotes. And very good they are too, but it’s not really what I’m about.
I have a blogroll… I didn’t realise they were passé. That’s how uncool I am… I’m not sure you need my opinion on this matter, I’m more of a stone tablet type it seems.
May 3rd, 2010 at 9:59 am
We were cute.
In the past five years, I have found blogging changed from a chorus of voices wanting to be heard to a chorus of voices no less interesting but more interested in what they can get from this – whether it be money, fame, recognition, or a combination of some or all.
(Pot calling the kettle black, I know: I have a review page. I market myself badly, but I DO. It saddens, me, though, to feel that so many people are writing blogs JUST for marketing.)
Another thing I’ve noticed is that many of the people I revered when I started have either stopped all together, or moved on. Burnt out, or fed up with the drabbling? I don’t know.
May 3rd, 2010 at 10:19 am
Diversification is good. The pot grows, the slices of pie get bigger – pick your favorite metaphor. Think about the evolution of books, for example, you old-timer you.
We started with expensive, fancy, hand copied manuscripts: rare, exclusive, and for intellectuals rather than the masses – kinda of like the early internet (which was for geeks only). We progressed to movable type – more materials available for more people in more forms. I’m reminded of college intranets and usenet bulletin boards in the 90′s here. Next came high speed sophisticated printing – and with it magazines, store catalogs, cheap books, etc…aka the world wide web, widespread email, and *gasp* BLOGS! And now – now? Electronic dominance supplants paper copies in many places, just as social networking snippets have overtaken blogging (a computer in every pocket with cell phones?). But neither books nor blogs will go away any time soon, however much they morph.
Grossly over-simplified, I know, but hopefully you get my point. We’ve been here before – and we’ll be here again.
Personally, I beg you – prostrate on the floor with nose squished to the ground – not to go commercial. Not here, anyway. This feels like sacred space, a bubble that holds back time and noise to cradle emotion and existence.
My blog feels like that to me, too. A quiet place apart from life to think and explore and “get my sad out” as afteriris said above. And sometimes to get the profound out, too, such as I see it. I’ve never been pitched, though I’m not the writer you. But that was never really my intent.
The followers, the fame, the frenzy? Not for me, not here, not now. If they hype gets to you (speaking to the masses now, not to you, Bon) then get off the spinning carousel and embrace your personal electronic space for what it means to you – and make another one to explore another side of existence. In life and time, we’re limited to one body. In cyberspace, we can be and project and explore all facets of who we are or want to be.
Me? I just want to make messages to my own future, my someday self, and anyone else who might be interested enough now or later to come along for the ride.
May 3rd, 2010 at 10:59 am
I don’t think it’s Twitter and I don’t think it’s advertising that has changed things – I think it’s the sheer number of people involved. Back in 2006, the momosphere was a community small enough that everybody could know everybody else (or at least know OF everybody else). Not only is it far too big for that now, but all the normal people showed up and started writing helpful tips about activities and crafts … the composition of the momosphere started looking a lot more like the composition of any local play group. That gasp of recognition – “I found you!” – had to do with all of us abstract theorizing types finding a place where, for once, we were in the majority. Now we’re not – and so we fall back on Twitter conversations with people we already know.
May 3rd, 2010 at 11:14 am
There are many reasons why I discontinued my personal blog, only one of them was a lament for what the greater blogosphere with its branding and monetization had become. A big reason was also my conflicted feelings over sharing my family’s stories while simultaneously realizing that avoiding doing so by only telling my own stories was becoming an insular, ego-driven pursuit. Then there was the shift in lifestyle: blogging lends itself to evening and afternoon hours when a parent silently tries to wait out a nap or bedtime. It is less conducive to the smaller scraps of time a person is handed as they jump from work to home to dance class to whatever.
So many of us who did blog in the glory days–who did feel the profound, raw, personal connections of ought 5 and ought 6–have all or nothing personalities. If you have that kind of personality (and I have it in spades), it’s hard to dabble in the genre. Posting leads to reading, leads to commenting, leads to alliances, leads to controversies, leads to a life consumed by the virtual. I lost my zeal for consumption along the way, especially when it seemed that so many of the discussions became either circular or entrenched.
And now, because I am Mad as well as Sue, I will give you one of my old-school extended metaphors–the kind I built my bloggy reputation on:
When I first started dating my husband, he went out to the bar after our slo-pitch games, he went to see live music with my group of friends, he danced, he drank, he walked the social walk. After we’d been together for about 6 months, I asked him why he no longer did any of these things. His answer was simple: “I have you now, so I no longer have to,” said the spider to the fly. At first I was struck dumb by his response. Now I realize his answer was the logical and inevitable introvert’s answer. It’s also one answer I would have given to those close to me in the blogosphere about 6 months ago. “I love you all to death but I have done the courtship dance. Courtship can’t last forever, so can we please get on with this stable, understated caring marriage? Pretty please?”
At least I thought that was the solution Twitter offered as I moved out of blogging. I now know that also isn’t quite enough b/c Twitter lends itself mainly to simple chatter,–and every now and then a good marriage needs a heart to heart and a meeting of the minds. Where then lies the happy medium between the heady, life-consuming days of courtship and the flat-lining of a marriage that’s not worked on in earnest?
I don’t know. I like to kid myself that my work blog brings something to the table–that is is not only a service to all my communities (university and parent bloggers) but a way of keeping my head in the game. A way of showing you all that I still have a brain and a heart even if all my tweets have devolved into personal complaints about the health of family.
What am I trying to say here? Ah, hell, I don’t know. I guess I’m trying to say that I don’t really miss blogging as I used to do it and know it, but I will always carry with me the longing for a better social media marriage. So how does social media move forward to bridge its deficiencies? I don’t know. What I do know is that I continue to love and respect my close blog friends in the way I continue to love and respect my grad school friends and all those other people in my life that I have let my guard down with and forged strong bonds in the process.
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As an aside, I too have monetized in a way. My children’s lit blog is now part of my career–I’ve pulled my social media interest into my paid work. True, I do most of the reading for my posts in my free time but, hey, that’s what it means to have a vocation and not a joe-job. I’ve also spun paid workshops out of blog posts and I’ve recently sold a blog post to a children’s lit magazine. None of this adds up to much money at all, but it does reflect that path that I felt comfortable with in engaging with the commercial ‘net.
May 3rd, 2010 at 11:40 am
I’m furiously scribbling notes for my BlogHer session (there’s that *conference* word). It’s about small blogs, but what it’s really about, at heart, is why we blog; because to deal with the “size matters” problem, we have to understand why we’re blogging in the first place. I think I love the idea of reconceiving the term “blogging.”
May 3rd, 2010 at 12:07 pm
I don’t even have an iPod (though my kid does and lets me borrow it if I ask nicely). Friends teased us over dinner last night that we don’t have PVR – I actually have to try and catch TV shows while they are on (which is likely why I hardly ever watch television). I have an old typewriter that doesn’t work but is so attractive it makes me want to sit down and pound out a novel, typos and all.
For me, the blogging was all about the relationships. I don’t know if that was my original intent, it’s hard to remember my motivations now. But it evolved into startling recognition and marinating in a delicious blend of savoury voices.
I shut my blog down. Why? Privacy, time constraints and the general feeling that blogging was turning into a shit-storm of stats, self-promotion and in-fighting. Although the bloggers I read tended to be of the writing-for-writing’s-sake variety.
Twitter is a way to keep connected to the kindred spirits I met through blogging. But, like Sue, I find that Twitter often feels like a carb-heavy snack when I really want some protein. That’s why a well-placed tweet will still pull me over to enjoy the voices that drew me in so many years ago.
May 3rd, 2010 at 12:35 pm
this shift broke my heart. really, it did. i think i most agree with bea’s take on things.
i’m still plugging along. i have not monetized (unless you count blogher ads, which, as they bring in maybe $30 every three months, you really cannot count).
i’m still — wait for it — hoping to be discovered. so that someone will commission me to write a piece of fiction, nonfiction, whatever.
yes, you can feel sorry for me now. because it ain’t gonna happen. blogs are not a shortcut to anything. if anything, they are a longcut.
sigh.
i still feel the strong connection to kindred spirits on twitter, at least.
May 3rd, 2010 at 12:39 pm
p.s. i know i’m beating a dead horse. i do wish i could return to the halcyon years of blogging.
May 3rd, 2010 at 12:42 pm
p.p.s. (would you shut up already, sarah?) i am heartened to have found sites like indieink.org, collectives for literary and artistic work.
May 3rd, 2010 at 1:03 pm
i struggle with this each time i write a blog. i write because i love writing, because blogging, for me, was a way to force myself to step back into my writing after spending years away from it.
it’s easy to look around and see all these “mommyblogs” blowing up, women making money from their blogs and establishing “brands” and all that, but i just think i would feel so false about the whole thing. just like, if i ever wrote a novel, i wouldn’t want to write dumbed-down chick-lit because it would sell. i’d want to write my own brand of literature, and even if only six people buy the book and five of them are my best friends, well, that’s okay too.
the blogs i love best are the ones like this one – well-written, narrative, introspective. no giveaways or product reviews or sponsorships. i don’t mind ads, for the most part, since i do most of my reading through Google Reader and don’t see them. but i do think that “blogging” should be divided into two classes – those who actually WRITE, and those who simply self-promote. as a writer and a reader, i’m not interested in the latter.
May 3rd, 2010 at 1:08 pm
I often become shy in the online world because I’m not sure in which blogging community I fit and fear insulting those who are truly great writers by sharing the same title. Because compared, I don’t deserve to. I don’t have a blog to earn money or even to practice my craft. I have poor grammar, poor spelling and do not consider myself a writer. I have my little space because I find it easier to keep and write in a diary on the computer than I do on paper. I make it available because I’d like to make new friends. If that is how they find me, then great. Combined with Twitter, I find it fun to visit with my online friends.
In searching for information, I do not visit blogs. In my industry, I find there are more and more blogs about organic and small farming that share bad, incomplete or just wrong information. It worries me that people who may not know any better use these sites as thier only source of info. Some blogs are disguised as being knowlegable and “right” by the advertising on the site. (Seed companies advertise here, they must know what they’re talking about.)
May 3rd, 2010 at 1:31 pm
I started my blog in late 1998. Just before blogging died. I love writing my blog but I’ve discovered I get followers (not MANY, mind you) that want me to follow them – and they are mainly a giveaway/review site. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but it’s NOT why I started blogging. Sigh.
May 3rd, 2010 at 2:07 pm
Hmm. Nothing to add except i find it really difficult to navigate some of the commercial u need to click on a post in order to read it.blogs where yoy. I had a hard time blogging b/c I find myself boring. Ditto social media like facebook
May 3rd, 2010 at 2:54 pm
Bon, thank you for writing this. It is a topic I think about often, mainly because I feel I am not savvy enough to get the big picture and yet bristle at the picture being drawn by traditional media sources.
When I started my blog in 2006, it was as a lark. I wanted to see how my journal-writing would change if I did it via keyboard rather than fountain pen. And I truly saw it as my journal, giving no thought whatsoever to it being public. Being found at that time actually terrified me and I ultimately went private for a long time. My blogging ebbed and flowed just as my paper journals have. But when I lost my daughter, I did what afteriris said so well, and used my blog as a place to quietly put my grief because there was no place else. I re-opened it earlier this year because I found that reading other blogs alleviated the loneliness and alienation I felt and I wanted to be a little more “knowable” in case, you know, [shuffles feet] someone might want to know me…
What I want now is a few good friends, not followers (makes me feel like a cult leader, albeit a failing one), not freebies (well, not usually) and not unsolicited product recommendations (what noise!). But as my life shifts focus from old worries to new ones, I can’t help but wonder if those new friends will stay with me. I just don’t have that perspective yet and it seems I really missed the golden age of deep connections. And now it is my turn to sigh.
I recently read someone’s last post wherein she said goodbye to the blog. That’s cool. I get it. She received comments indicating that closing down her blog was the noble thing to do. It made me feel that I have a lot to learn about this blogging business. Does a blogger have to make her life fit into the blog category or theme or room (and close it if she no longer can) or does the blog expand and change as the life does? Whose blog is it, the writer’s or her audience’s?
May 3rd, 2010 at 2:54 pm
Holy cow! I am sorry that was so long.
May 3rd, 2010 at 2:55 pm
thanks for all this feedback, people. am chewing over it, thinking.
i realize in reading what you’ve reflected back at me that i may have given the impression that my stance is anti-branding or anti-money-making, which it’s not. but i do think perceiving our blogs or our online personas as brand-first all the time is limiting in terms of connections and human interactions. i would write product reviews, enthusiastically, for the right product fit – which in my case might not be a commercial product, but who knows? i don’t mind reading them. i buy things. but i like the freedom and honesty that generally NOT doing them affords me. and i like the freedom and honesty that perceiving my online persona as an extension of self rather than solely as a brand affords me too.
what’s the difference between a brand and an extension of self? is it in the space Audrey’s referring to when she asks whether a blog belongs to its author or the audience?
me, i don’t really believe an author controls much: i think the space that is this blog lives somewhere out there between me and you, and in that sense i understand how a “brand” has an existence of its own. but i still enjoy the pretense of driving it all. :)
May 3rd, 2010 at 3:34 pm
My personal blog–even though it was nothing but a representation of the most sincere me–was less like a brand and more like a fictional character. I, the author of that character, knew when her story was well and truly done. Sure, it saddened me to say goodbye to her, but her ending had come. In closing down that blog, I didn’t feel as if the genre no longer fit me. I just felt that Mad was no more.
May 3rd, 2010 at 4:16 pm
I agree with Bea. Blogland used to feel like a handful of grad students just starting their degree, drinking coffee at 2am and arguing over ideas that (seemed like they) mattered intensely… Now it’s more like a frat party. I’m sure kindred spirits are around; but at a frat party it’s awfully hard to find them.
May 3rd, 2010 at 4:26 pm
I’ve never felt the sense of community that the others were always talking about, however — I didn’t feel the obligations or that really deep connection. For me it was always about ideas, not emotional attachment. I’m like that in real life, too. I used to think pretty much every woman thought & felt pretty much like I do, but after 5 years in Blogland I realize that I’m different. (It’s not negative or positive, I don’t feel either sad or happy about it. It’s just a fact.) And one great thing about blogging, for me, has been that now that I better understand other women, I can be a better friend — IRL and virtually.
May 3rd, 2010 at 5:12 pm
In the past few weeks I have read a lot of monetizing/how to start a blog / how to write the best blog / stuff and it’s starting to annoy me. It feels like I’m at a tradeshow and people keep thrusting pamphlets at me as I walk by and I’m just trying to get to the popcorn stand. It feels like creeping weeds taking over a field I liked just fine with its various flowers and vegetables and the order I understood and appreciated.
I don’t like “rules” and I don’t like people saying “you have to.”
I am also a maudlin clinger. I love that.
Anyway, I think if you are a writer, having an audience, no matter how small or artificial or anonymous, makes you better. So I do think the rise of blogging has made better writers of us, no matter where we started or where our goals were/are.
I want to turn back to writing fiction again but I don’t think I have time to parent and write fiction and blog.
And: I read for the stories. For the ones that are similar to mine or completely foreign. For turns of phrase that make me weep. For humour. The Internet is my giant library without late fines. Sometimes I pick up a magazine and flip through it and check out the ads for lip gloss but mostly I am scanning the bookshelves for writing that makes me squirm in all the best ways.
May 3rd, 2010 at 5:33 pm
*one last comment*
I think a word that would describe blogs like yours would be related to the word “epistolary.” Our blogs are letters.
I hope to be read, not by the entire world but by individuals; I aim not to convince but to describe. This is how life is for me…
May 3rd, 2010 at 8:29 pm
You see a lot of people making money of their blogs these days, it’s true. But what most people don’t see is that they are a very, very small percentage of the whole ‘blogosphere’ (gods, I hate that word. . . . ), and you can’t just jump in and start rolling in the money.
It takes work. A lot of it. And buckets of luck. Just like any other form of writing.
It’s very much a case of people paying attention to the loudest, and not noticing the hordes that go quietly about their day, writing just for the sake of writing. Continually honing their craft, and throwing their thoughts out into the ether.
Personally, I prefer the quieter ones. The ones that aren’t getting paid for it. When it becomes a job, the writing gets forced, because the writer is constantly trying to make it perfect.
They have a paying audience to appease, after all.
In regards to the older technology, though, I have to agree. There is nothing cooler than outdated tech. I love my shiny new iPod, don’t get me wrong, but I still play vinyl records as much as I can. I still have hundreds of VHS tapes, and play old-school video games on their original platforms.
New tech is awesome, but old tech is still just as great as it always was.
May 4th, 2010 at 1:42 am
I want to answer the blog questions after I think a while on it. First I just want to say that I still have my very first, still working Sony Walk-Man. Yup. I like it. I bring it on the plane for the girls to listen to. I got it when I was six. I don’t hold on to much stuff in life, but that one doesn’t take up very much space and is pretty useful. (So long as I keep a stack of tapes around which are giant compared to digital media stored in a toothpick!)
But I’m gonna think about the blog question and get back to you. : )
May 4th, 2010 at 12:53 pm
Hmmm…yes, your blogroll is a bit outdated, as it doesn’t have my new URL. (Also, I want you to come visit me. Pretty please.)
I still think about quitting 10 times a day. Blogging has made me needier. And I don’t like that aspect of it. I can tell you which friends haven’t left comments in ages, and believe me when I tell you that I do not want to be like that. I hate that part of it for me.
And yet, I’m perfectly happy being rather smallish. It’s a nice corner. I worry not about conferences or hotel rooms, but just getting something written. It’s a place to gather thoughts, blow off steam, or be rather inappropriate.
The monetization…sometimes I feel ill-equipped to address that. On the one hand, people should be able to make a living off writing. On the other hand, does it become all about keywords and links and disclosing things lest we become a blogger sans integrity…
I’ve never had ads…but I’d be lying if I said I’d never looked into it.
May 4th, 2010 at 4:49 pm
I like checking here to see how many of your followers have attempted to “out-Bon” you with the lingo they use in their responses.
And I like dinosaurs.
May 5th, 2010 at 4:08 am
I’ve been blogging since 1998, or with software since 2000. That sort of makes me the granny in the area and I found it a bit amusing when everything reached the fever pitch a few years back. Back when I started, the connections were smaller – the core blogs I commented on where a more diverse group of individuals and we were more honest – knowing that no one else was reading (a lot of the early posts have been deleted because I didn’t want to reveal too much when it was job search time in 2005).
I’ve never had ads and I don’t think I ever will because it’s always been my space. But then I’m not popular anymore because I don’t participate in the memes and the endless rounds of pat-on-the-back. Too cynical, too old and creaky, too in favour of privacy these days…
Feel free to ask questions about what I thought about blogging in 2001 though if it’d be helpful. Most of the people I blogged with aren’t around anymore online but another good one to ask would be arsenic.net – Mike’s been blogging longer than I have. They had a different blog to talk about their kids: creamofpotatosoup.com that they’ve shut down now.
May 5th, 2010 at 8:23 am
Sorry Bon, no help from me. As you know, I am more dinosaur than you on the blog-o-sphere or whatever it’s called. I write my blog for friends and family only (and I think that’s all who read it, except the odd person who comes via you). I would actually be more happy if I could strictly limit it to friends and family and as I can’t I edit as if the whole world is looking.
I read your blog because you’re my friend, and I care about your fingerprint. I don’t read others.
Good luck with the research though!
May 6th, 2010 at 12:21 am
I started blogging in January of 2007. Oh, I loved it. I loved writing and reading and commenting. I was lonesome, and blogging helped to close that void.
But things have changed. I used to feel like my commenters were my friends. But not so much anymore. Most of my “friends” have stopped blogging.
Sometimes I wonder why I keep writing – because I am certainly not in it to make money. I think I continue because it requires me to think. And when you hang out with toddlers everyday, you need a hobby that requires a little thinking.
May 6th, 2010 at 2:32 am
oh, bon, you sum it all up in such a succinct and gorgeous way…and you put into proper words just how i feel about this whole internets blogging thing…
i started it because i was lonely and scared, continued it because i have the worst memory in the world and now just skim in and out, direction unknown. my day job makes the funds i need so it makes no sense to do ads and insane marketing and branding of oneself. it tastes bad anyway. but i wonder too, about the footprint we leave behind, stories disclosed about our kids (sometimes i feel at the expense of our kids), soul laid bare, words on ‘paper’ forever kept caches by google. a different journal, one open and accessed and used to market and pander bits that we profess not to believe in or support.
i am freaking out about my commitment to attend blogher. i scan the sessions and reply to the after party thingies and think that i might just go to brooklyn and find other ways to play for a week. it just seems like a big conference with a focus on things not so relevant to my life. but it could be just a fun weekend too. guess i should stay open. and invite you down to nyc to stay in brooklyn for a few days to play…blogher or not.
and maybe you should put a late lobby in to do some research on the whole internets thing for your phd. and petition a session during the weekend conference about just this topic. i would surely attend. :)
May 6th, 2010 at 11:00 am
Christy, i think that hobby that requires a little thinking is what kept me going through my first year of blogging, in particular. it was a space to use complete sentences, at the very least. and that’s a good thing.
Mamie, a late BlogHer petition…hmmm. you tempt me. i’d actually LOVE to go to BlogHer this year, had hoped and planned to attend, but b/c i was waiting on my Ph.D acceptance wasn’t able to commit. am still waiting to see if i’m in a course that week, so NYC unfortunately is probably off the table. but maybe next year. i hope next year will be my year. i’d love to meet everyone, and maybe do some “research” on how the corporate and personal intersect.
:)
May 6th, 2010 at 11:03 am
and Trish…i definitely want to know more about blogging in 2001. i wish i’d known it even existed back then…those were my transient years, the floating from continent to continent days. i have my journal records, though, and those are lovely artifacts. possibly some years are better kept private.
May 6th, 2010 at 5:04 pm
well, reading this made me feel like an absolute dork. i am, apparently, very late on the blogger scene and had no idea there even were trends i was supposed to be keeping up with! eep!
my online identity consists of being a “dead baby mama” and a woman who processes her life by writing. and who likes reading other people who have shared a very difficult experience. there ain’t nothing brandable about me.
i guess there would be other venues for meeting other moms like me. and i could just write in my journal at home. but, frankly, my blog is pretty, and the features are kind of cool, and it keeps my thoughts so organized and formalized. and i’ve encountered some really wonderful writers out there… so, i write because i need to, and i read because i like to. i guess this makes me unbearably quaint.
yes, i vote this for your phd topic!
May 6th, 2010 at 10:00 pm
My blog is a year old, but I have been “blogging” for just over seven years – I started keeping an on-line diary (as I called it, not having heard the word blog) just after my eldest daughter was born. We live far from half of our family, and at that stage even further from the rest – we’ve since returned home. The first website was a protected one, family-only. Now I blog “in public”, with names changed to protect the guilty, but my intended audience is just a few people. I am surprised now to be getting about 30 readers a day. I blog so that my children’s grandparents and aunts and uncles, and our friends overseas who would be pseudo-aunts and uncles if they lived closer, can feel that they “know” the children. I tell the same sort of stories on the blog as I tell my own mother on the phone most evenings. Just little reflections on everyday life, the funnies and the struggles. There is no aim to be anything else, and I don’t think it ever will be. I’ve certainly never been bothered by the “PR pitches” I’ve heard others complain about, and I’d be astonished to receive one :-)
That said, I have found a wonderful sense of community in blogging. There are a few (just a few because I can’t keep up with more) that I love to read, read regularly, and often comment on, and get comments on my blog in return. These women have come to be real friends whom I would love to meet one day.
I think you’ve chosen a fascinating research topic…
May 7th, 2010 at 4:19 pm
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May 7th, 2010 at 11:08 pm
First of all, I found you as a companion Five Star Friday listing.
I write my blog simply because I have to write. I resisted blogging (I figured it was a social youth culture kind of thing) until about four months ago. Prior to that I wrote what I call vignettes — essentially blogs to myself. Writing is a fulfilling experience to me.
I didn’t realize that blogging (I really don’t like that word) is something that is supposed to be on decline. But I guess that doesn’t bother me. For once I will be on the tail end of something. I do not engage in the Facebook-Twitter-Ipad picture-taking-texting-cell phoning. My cell phone is perhaps used three times a month and when I do use it I hesitate as I try to remember what I am supposed to do. I sorta’ like it that way. I have no need — no desire to be ‘connected’ at all times.
So the blog thing is my only venture into quasi-social online interaction, and it works for me because of the positive reinforcement I get from what I write.
Monetizing blogs? Not for me. I need to freedom to go where my fingers carry me without any real or imagined infringement.
I’m not sophisticated in any of this and for right now at least, I like being that way.
Discovering you is a delightful and thoughtful joy.
Warm regards,
Jerry
May 9th, 2010 at 4:49 pm
I’LL tell you what gets left behind. It’s the same thing that goes out the door when college students, fresh from creative writing classes, get hired at newspapers. It’s a certain irreplaceable measure of creativity. As a noncommercial blogger, I believe the greatest reward of writing for free is being able to write what I want, when I want, about whatever I want, without being beholden to advertisers or readers. I need not limit myself to certain subject matter. I can fling my psyche all over the epistemological universe with reckless abandon. I know what I say is going to be read for enjoyment, considered, digested, not dissected or parsed as commercial content, written to please an audience, might.
Just as an Underwood might serve as an art-deco centerpiece, and a MacBook or an iPad is a sterile, streamlined, functional, over-aesthetic, soulless digital bypass; just as a poet writes what he wants, what he feels, and a reporter writes what he thinks the audience wants to know; so is commercial blogging pared down and encapsulated, certain florid phrases rejected, needless tangents excised, poetic turns of phrase transmogrified into neutral nuggets of data, enslaved by the aim of a commercial network.
I write a lot, but there’s a lot I still want to say. And I don’t want to have to limit myself. It seems that there’s a little less elbow room when noncommercial blogging gets left by the wayside.
May 11th, 2010 at 1:59 am
I’m pleased that Jerry nudged me here. I’m too recent an entrant into this world to have your perspective. In fact, apparently, I began at the precise moment of the death of blogging (December 27, 2008). I didn’t want to do it at all, but I had become aware that if I wanted to be published, I needed to broaden my platform. Then I found out what was meant by “platform.” In my first foray, I declared the word “blogger” unlovely and called myself a Diaryer, which had problems of its own. I didn’t expect to enjoy myself.
What happened was my writing got more air in it, like a fusty old blanket whipped in the breeze by its corners, and I began to trust my abilities more. I was proud of what I was putting out. One of your commenters preferred the unpolished aspect of the non-pro bloggers, but although no money is coming my way, I have taken great care with each post, re-writing and editing and holding back if they’re not funny enough (it’s a humor column).
But I’ve struggled with what it all means. Did I need compensation? No, I’m old and retired and have enough to live on, which sets me free for this occupation. Still, something seems amiss about putting out stuff for free when other people need to make a living at writing. Did I need an audience? That seems closer to it, but I didn’t think it had to be big. Then one week I noticed my analytics dove into negative territory. I lost sleep. Had to recognize it was important somehow. It’s chugging right along now, but I still don’t know what I’m aiming at.
For now it seems to be enough that my writing is appreciated by some people, including people I haven’t met. I traveled across country to meet a group of people I’d befriended through this little exercise. I’m still working on a novel. I want recognition, but not fame. All right, I don’t know what I want. I do know that I resist hanging badges and awards on my page, preferring it pristine and professional in case anybody with any clout should trip over it.
And I’m so backward that I don’t even know what the out-of-date things are. I still don’t have a cell phone.
May 11th, 2010 at 3:59 pm
“tell me what difference this whole evolving world has made in your life”: I have a lot of friends in the computer that I didn’t have before, and some of them I now know in real life.
Also, to obsolete technology, I have a box of records in the cellar – but no record player.
May 11th, 2010 at 4:58 pm
Disclaimer: did not read previous comments.
I started my blog in 06. I barely knew what a blog was and hated the name but loved the concept. Now, 3 years later, I’m nearly as obscure as ever, but i’ve made some great friends and I enjoy writing for an audience. So I’ll never make any money at it. Oh well.
And I totally agree with the need for new names. I never quite fit the mommyblogger mold–or the travel blog mold–I guess I fit the expat mold.
May 12th, 2010 at 9:42 pm
Blogging has changed a lot since I started…mostly in the ways you’ve outlined. I have no desire to jump on the $$ marketing/business bandwagon. I started writing for me, because I had to find some place to open and honest, afraid and broken, scared and confused…I needed to figure out the scary new world I was in, and I did. I found connections along the way, too. Now I write more out of habit or to maintain those connections than out of real need to be heard. I still love it, though, and don’t plan on quitting anytime soon.
May 12th, 2010 at 10:22 pm
I suspect I’m a big dinosaur, too. I describe myself as the techie who can’t turn on the VCR. Technically, I feel, I’m way behind you and yet my friends think I’m WAY beyond them. Guess it depends on the company you keep.
I don’t think anything gets lost in the shift, perhaps re-defined. Privacy is redefined. Friend is re-defined. Conversation is broadly defined. Literacy will be never ending as we try to catch the definition of it with a net!
Your future work sounds awesome, wish I had thought of it, Cheers
May 15th, 2010 at 8:28 pm
The newbiest of all of you I am and thinking this thread should be mandatory pre-requisite reading for blogbirth, or even blog-control.
I gave up classical guitar when I heard Segovia. I gave up writing mystical musings when I discovered Rainer Maria Rilke wrote prose, not just poetry.
I was ready to scrap blogging when I first read Bon and cribchronicles. She’s that good.
But I’m ‘older-than-that-now’ and have decided to persist awhile with two motives:
Cold fury at mass media pundits and reporters who embed poisonous declarative indicatives dripping with logical fallacies disguised as questions only because they are voiced with interrogative analogs. A rising tone on the final syllable that poisons public discourse and undermines democratic governance.
Secondly, to offset, however slightly, the disappearance of the third generation.
Time was when a subdued fifteen year old lad, aching from his first romantic rejection, would find himself out in the back forty helping Gramps and great-uncle Frank replace a fence post. Unbidden and without explicitly commenting on the boy’s sullen cant, Uncle Frank spins a yarn about his first heartbreak. Seems the slightly older brother of a neighbour had just completed repairs on a 1946 Indian Chief (motorcycle) that hadn’t worked in years. He offered Frank a spin.
“Fifteen minutes later, I couldn’t even remember her name!” says Frank.
Gramps laughs so hard, tears come to his eyes.
The young lad picks up the shovel and spiritedly starts back filing the post hole.
Thus, my second motive. To offer aging boomers, awash with existential angst over disappearing roles and definitions as parent or professional prodigy, a little sweaty fly-swatting third generation lore from the virtual ‘back-forty’ to ease the way.
As for all you momobloggers bemoaning the more inconsiderate among our brats and throwing in the towel, shame on you if it’s for any reason other than just needing a break.
Your grandaughters and grandnieces won’t have any difficulty finding advice and company during the ‘mom’ years. They will sorely need to read how you navigated the very periods during which you stopped blogging.
May 21st, 2010 at 11:41 am
Re: “over the next three years, i’ll research social media and study technologies and trends and futures and what they all might mean for education and culture in the 21st century”
A small side issue, are the models Ivan Ilych predicted in “Deschooling Society” considered passé now and, if not, what are/have Internet and social media done to accelerate the process?
In the case of his prediction of narrowly focused courses on specific skill sets, wondering whether your tweet about paying or not for massive online delivery might not be more about obtaining and authenticating credentials for having mastered the material more than payment for the actual instruction?