Archive for January, 2011

Monday, January 31st, 2011

but the earth and sky

once, i thought we were a matched set of shoes, toes pointing together. the bloom is off the rose. he is a cowboy boot, i see it now. or maybe a brogue, stitched and sewn in ways that will never match my own. but still i admire the curve of a heel, the shape of […]

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Monday, January 24th, 2011

gifts

our first Christmas together, he bought me the hat. i never wanted diamonds. or perfume, or whatever was supposed to make me feel cherished. those proper things always made me feel inept, party to an exchange that was somehow utterly unrelated to any of the things i valued about myself. but a patchwork velvet top […]

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Saturday, January 22nd, 2011

once were warriors

we were rushing our way through the half-abandoned mall to Oscar’s speech appointment upstairs. he was fifty feet away at the coffee shop table, his white shock of hair sticking straight up. everyone has a visual imprint, a way of walking or sitting, the cock of a head, the way a hand punctuates speech. my […]

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Monday, January 17th, 2011

himself

he starts a new job, today. or at least a new position, with a right official title: Manager, Web Communications & Innovations, UPEI. a “real” job, my mother would say. she and i, who’ve both worked all our lives, have never quite had one. i’m going to call him “Guv’nor.” or just “Sir.” i think […]

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Monday, January 10th, 2011

the home project

…i think he’s wondering how he got here from there. on a May night almost ten years ago after a copious quantity of liquor, i doubt he looked at me and thought, “now, THERE’s a woman i can play dolls with early on a Sunday morning ten years hence. before we even get any coffee. […]

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Thursday, January 6th, 2011

epiphany and breach

i am lying on the couch, nestled up against my laptop, as usual. the almost-white light of a January morning spills in and floods the room and i stop and turn to it. i shift onto my back and stretch my spine. if i could purr, i would. i seldom see this room, though my […]

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