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Friday, July 4th, 2008
true confessions
i am all ascatter. my work is mostly done…my formal work, my paid work. the paid part, at least, is totally done. there are still a few finishing touches i’ve committed to finishing up as freebies, just ’cause i get this nifty sense of validation from being involved in things that exist outside the four […]
29 Comments » - Posted in stuff to be done by bon
Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008
…and the tree loved the boy
ever since it dawned on us the other night how dire the situation with the runt tree is, Dave’s taken to watering it in the evenings. birches are thirsty creatures. we know that our weeding/nitrate-enriching measures – however highly recommended by Tree Doctor Google – likely won’t save it, but trying feels better than sitting […]
25 Comments » - Posted in stuff stuff by bon
Saturday, June 28th, 2008
after the first death, there is no other
it is dying, the little tree. it is a clump birch, the smaller of the two that flank the lithe red maple in our backyard. we planted the three of them on Mother’s Day the year that Finn died, eight days after. his father dug the holes in the rain, i sprinkled some of his […]
28 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff by bon
Friday, June 27th, 2008
and we shall never speak of this again
so, um…yeh. the hospital in Halifax sent me home. i am free, and grateful, and confused, and a little sheepish. do you think a cervix can have Munchausen’s syndrome? or a split personality? my doc here sent me because she can only check me manually, and she’s feeling a lot of softening and related shortening […]
45 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff,pregnancy stuff by bon
Wednesday, June 25th, 2008
rescinded
we leave for Halifax first thing tomorrow. the wheel has turned again. i can feel my cervix leaving the building, softening, losing interest in its task. so we go for safe-keeping, for measurement and steroids, to be four floors from the best NICU east of Montreal rather than four hours. if i were a gambling […]
54 Comments » - Posted in pregnancy stuff by bon
Sunday, June 22nd, 2008
and the cotton is high
my boy fell asleep tonight like a small, curly-headed rock. he and his father spent what must have been half of this true first weekend of summer running in the yard. it’s the first time it’s been genuinely warm here…i know the rest of you have been melting, in more southerly climes, but i […]
20 Comments » - Posted in smitten stuff by bon
Friday, June 20th, 2008
century
one hundred years ago today, a woman who would be known to posterity as L.M. Montgomery, a spinster in her thirties living in a rural farmhouse belonging to relatives, received a package in the mail. it was the first edition of her first novel, titled Anne of Green Gables. it went through five printings by […]
33 Comments » - Posted in relationship stuff by bon
Wednesday, June 18th, 2008
divination
the Wheel of Fortune is a lucky card in a Tarot deck, so long as it is not reversed. in some incarnations of the deck, the wheel bears a circling sphinx, representing the riddle of fortune; in others human figures ride the wheel, some rising with the tide of luck, others falling. my favourite version, […]
39 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff,pregnancy stuff by bon
Sunday, June 15th, 2008
not another Hallmark card
Father’s Day has always been my least favourite holiday on the Hallmark calendar. my father spent my childhood thousands of miles away, a voice on a phone, a series of semi-regular notes and letters in a cursive script round and beautiful. he was, always, my father. he was not a dad, though, never a […]
29 Comments » - Posted in relationship stuff by bon
Friday, June 13th, 2008
my soapbox
no angst today. we’re all out. i made 24 weeks today, safely past yesterday’s milestone of having had my water break at 23w6d the first time around, necessitating airlift and uncovering all sorts of previously unanticipated complications… so today i’m just breathing, grateful, good. and in celebration, i’m doing laundry. because i really AM that […]
