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Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
i grow old, i grow old
they say when your children are born and placed in your arms for the first time, you become – truly, finally – aware of your own mortality, of the cyclical, revolving nature of this thing called life and the loss inherent to it. they say this awareness comes like a thud, sad and sweet and […]
59 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff by bon
Thursday, October 8th, 2009
my heady, heady life…or, twitterpated
i tend to take research results with a grain of salt. our accumulated human & societal experiments fascinate me. but when your own flawed self has been the architect of a plan or project designed to illuminate the human condition in some way or another, truths and illuminations from other people’s plans and projects start […]
24 Comments » - Posted in social media meta stuff,stuff stuff by bon
Sunday, September 27th, 2009
artful
when i was a kid, i spent a lot of time alone. i was not lonely, not particularly. i remember myself as social, eager, a child not overly burdened by shyness. yet i spent the majority of my time, it occurs to me, in solitary pursuits. books, Lego, Barbies. i remember spending a lot of […]
34 Comments » - Posted in stuff stuff,stuff to be done by bon
Thursday, September 24th, 2009
a back road somewhere
some things come easy. it is fall again and the light is yellow and crisp and i swear i only brought her home yesterday but there she is, Josephine walking, tottering like a blithe drunk about the house, careening into everything faster than my hands can catch her. she took her first formal steps, the […]
26 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff,mama-baby stuff by bon
Sunday, September 13th, 2009
o captain, my captain
classes start tomorrow. the campus is all preened, gussied up in Institutional Fresh, with just a hint of aspirational ivy. the air is crisp and sunny yellow in a way it only seems to be in September. and the little Lisa Simpson who’s lived in me all my life is chomping at the bit, ready […]
28 Comments » - Posted in milestone stuff,pondering stuff by bon
Wednesday, September 9th, 2009
the birthday girl
a year ago tonight, late in the dark last hour of the clock, i stepped out of my house and shut the door on a chapter of my life. i had meant to stop there, on the threshold, and breathe deep. i had meant to note, in the night air, this is the last time […]
38 Comments » - Posted in mama-baby stuff,milestone stuff by bon
Sunday, August 30th, 2009
two crow joy
suddenly, it is cold. there is an old adage here that after Old Home Week, the mid-August local exhibition/horserace/parade extravaganza, summer’s over. my mother likes to repeat these little kernels of local lore, intoning them like scripture, benedictions of wisdom our infidel ears might need to hear as we march round the calendar. i like […]
28 Comments » - Posted in mama-baby stuff,milestone stuff,smitten stuff by bon
Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
holy holy holy
Mommy, he interjects, the word escaping from him for the hundredth time in an hour. he is a balloon steadily leaking demands and questions, all the air being pushed out to make room for the wonders of the world. i am apparently the keeper of these secrets, the one who will spill all the magic […]
60 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff by bon
Sunday, August 16th, 2009
old dogs
razors pain you rivers are damp acids stain you and drugs cause cramp guns aren’t lawful nooses give gas smells awful you might as well live – Dorothy Parker i have always thought myself a cat person. and by some alchemical trick of metaphysics and assumption, my medieval mind has occasionally, therefore, convinced me that […]
38 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff,milestone stuff by bon
Tuesday, August 4th, 2009
tangle
there is always a last day. tomorrow, when i go back to work, i worry that my couch is going to miss me. for seventeen months now i’ve lain here in a troll-like mockery of fetal position, curled on my left hip and elbow, peck-peck-pecking at the computer. well, not when the kids were AWAKE. […]
