Author Archive
Friday, July 31st, 2009
amygdala
back a few years ago, when i was still frequently startled to discover that there were other people out there in this online thingy box, i woke up one morning to find i’d been given an award. i was more delighted than was strictly necessary, but the world of memes and blings was still a […]
20 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff,stuff to buy by bon
Sunday, July 26th, 2009
where i am
woke up yesterday to a July morning so damp and raw i had to swathe the kids in sweatshirts, jeans and socks just so we could huddle in our early morning stupor without getting the collective shivers. it’s not that we were tenting, or even in a cottage. just at home, in our stolid old […]
28 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff,stuff to be done by bon
Friday, July 17th, 2009
i prefer pleasant
i was angry when i slipped the note into the dark maw of her desk, around the rim of chewed, dried gum. furtively, i shoved the paper deep. i remember the feel of it leaving my hand, its sharply crumpled edges, the not-quite-moment-of-hesitation. i let go. and then i stood and walked away. i don’t think […]
31 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff by bon
Thursday, July 9th, 2009
days of wine & roses
soon there will be no baby in this house. she is blooming, this Posey, turning into a short person whose only speed is full ON and who goes from chewing on a shoe to sheer tragic starvation and an uncanny impersonation of a woman in labour in four seconds flat, all smiles and contentment and mmm, […]
34 Comments » - Posted in mama-baby stuff,milestone stuff,smitten stuff by bon
Saturday, July 4th, 2009
care
he is three and i swear he shines. this child i never imagined, my funny blond curly-headed boy who looks full-sprung from his father’s mother’s side of the family, the child who came into our lives in our deepest grief and whom my most secretbrokenself feared i might never fully claim…this Oscar of mine bursts […]
33 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff,mama-baby stuff by bon
Friday, June 26th, 2009
on a hot day when i see bicycles
she had white carpet in the entryway. i think there was a mirror there, but i have no recollection of my reflection in it, only the shock of the blood seeping into the white of my new shirt, proud-bought just days before with my very own money. it was the very last morning of my first […]
43 Comments » - Posted in coping stuff by bon
Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
the cyborg momifesto
i hear it everywhere, popping out from headlines, referenced casually until it begins to smell of truth. and stink a little with the impotence and collective rot it creates. a whiff of faint bewilderment, the fear of mortality and obsolescence. the thrill of feeling one has eaten from the prescient tree of knowledge, even if […]
23 Comments » - Posted in mama-baby stuff,pondering stuff,social media meta stuff by bon
Saturday, June 20th, 2009
and the livin’ is easy
hot days. finally summer. i live on an island with beaches that get touted in ads around the world. we ran a campaign in the 80’s that sold PEI as “the warmest waters north of Florida.” i remember a local comedian quipping, c’mon. don’t shit me here. i took geography. the warmest waters north of […]
18 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff by bon
Monday, June 15th, 2009
Jesse
he came up as a suggested Facebook friend. that application baffles me, i admit. it repeatedly pimps my brother’s dead dog’s memorial account, along with the guy who groped me most awkwardly – and somewhat traumatically – on that camping trip in college. erm, no. thank you. and then there’s the gaggle of people i […]
25 Comments » - Posted in milestone stuff by bon
Friday, June 12th, 2009
i would take the Northwest Passage
a long time ago now, i went North. to teach. i’d crossed the Arctic Circle once before, as a kid; the summer i was ten years old, i spent six weeks with my father in a landscape that looked like the moon to me – the sand and lichen and hardy little flowers of the […]
