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Tuesday, June 9th, 2009
tried in my way to be free
i saw a beggar leaning on his wooden crutch he said to me you must not ask for so much and a pretty woman leaning in her darkened door she cried to me hey, why not ask for more? – Bird on a Wire, Leonard Cohen Josephine pulled herself up yesterday for the first time. […]
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Sunday, June 7th, 2009
life’s rich pageant
we talk about it, her father and i. without hand-wringing, because it is neither of our first priorities, but with curiosity nonetheless, because observation of humanity is a hobby here. like a betting people taking wagers, we muse about it with gravity, as if it mattered…and in the same breath, with cavalier pretense, as if it […]
40 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff,smitten stuff by bon
Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009
when i grow up redux – on potential
my mother tells me i walked at nine months old. she has been telling me that for as long as i can remember. she’s also prone to mentioning that i spoke in clear sentences by two, and stayed dry through the nights shortly after. oh, i was a starbaby, clearly. and my mother’s pride […]
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Saturday, May 30th, 2009
when i grow up
when i was four, i wanted to be a ballerina. i think it was the tutus. you couldn’t just buy a kid a dressup tutu at the Woolworth’s back then; dressup was old plastic jewellry and mom’s clunky platform shoes to break an ankle in. unless you had a real live ballerina in the family, […]
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Monday, May 25th, 2009
partum, post
she’s been out now longer than she was ever in. yesterday marked sixteen months since the day i found out i was pregnant with Posey. it was an eight-month pregnancy that felt like eighty. and eight and a half months later, i think i’m finally recovered-ish. send flowers. they say we humans have a fourth […]
45 Comments » - Posted in mama-baby stuff,milestone stuff,pregnancy stuff by bon
Thursday, May 21st, 2009
independence
in my town, there’s a former suburb, long since absorbed into the city limits, rich with ’50s bungalows, called Sherwood. in a nod to somebody’s idea of clever literary allusion, most of its street names follow a woodsy theme – Pine, Maple, Oak, Ferndale, Heather – so that taken as a whole, you got yourself […]
33 Comments » - Posted in pondering stuff by bon
Sunday, May 17th, 2009
if we don’t get a holiday
Her Majesty Queen Victoria doesn’t look like a terribly good time. she’s got that forbidding gaze, the beak of a nose, the turned-down mouth that makes it shocking that she ever had to say, “We are not amused” aloud. surely a glance at her dour visage would’ve scared the living snot out of whomever was […]
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Tuesday, May 12th, 2009
shut the f*ck up Bonnie
years ago, after a few shots of honesty absinthe on a concrete balcony one October evening, Dave and i got to talking about having kids. i was thirty, he was turning twenty-eight. we were living in separate apartments in the bleak post-Soviet suburbs of the Hapsburg Empire, where we taught English to aspiring supermodels and […]
61 Comments » - Posted in issue stuff,pondering stuff by bon
Sunday, May 10th, 2009
ridiculous hallmark holiday edition
when i was a little girl, they gave out carnations at church on Mother’s Day. white if your mother was deceased, pink if she was alive. my mother’s was white, mine, trailing beside her, obviously pink. they were crinkly and soft, the flowers, little pom pom indicators. these days, Oscar tags along to church with […]
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Thursday, May 7th, 2009
but tell it slant
every year on the 30th of April, Dave’s parents set the lobster traps. out to sea, to open the season. some part of me finds this fitting, that this day is also the date of Finn’s death. blood inheritance and heritage and salt water all swirl around incoherently in my imagination, making me wish i […]
