Archive for December, 2007

Monday, December 31st, 2007


snowbound on this New Year’s Eve and it is naptime, sweet silent naptime. the flakes float down like feathers, nesting on us, forcing us to nest in on ourselves, and there is coffee aplenty – with Bailey’s Irish Cream, to be festive – and oatmeal on the stove in this yellow kitchen. oatmeal’s for remembrance, […]

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Saturday, December 29th, 2007

neither a long nor a strange trip

sometimes running away from home for a few days is just the very best thing in the world.  except maybe for coming home again. Dave & i took off from his parents’ place in the forenoon on Boxing Day and drove the six hours to Quebec City.  by ourselves, just the two of us.  Oscar stayed with his […]

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Tuesday, December 25th, 2007

…and so this is Christmas

for big and for small. three little boys here all together at Grandmaman & Grandpapa’s house, the whole clan, Catholics and Jews and a lapsed Protestant and the atheist all overeating in fellowship, playing with trucks and trains and sleds and plastic duckies, chocolates hidden away until darkness falls and the babies are asleep.  Oscar […]

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Friday, December 21st, 2007

no virgin-birthers need apply

i don’t normally do much in the way of product review here. okay, i never do anything in the way of product review here, unless chronic colds can somehow be counted as products and my lamentations considered a review. colds? boo. this absence of the commercial sphere from the blog isn’t entirely a reflection of […]

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Thursday, December 20th, 2007

dear universe

stop pushing me. remember what i said awhile back about mudita? about not being a callow, vindictive snark embittered by the poison of schadenfreude? that i wouldn’t bristle with childish “why can’t that be me?” whinging the next time some talentless, hard-living celebridee twit popped out a perfectly healthy baby in the glare of every […]

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Sunday, December 16th, 2007

in heavenly peace

it is, for those of us who celebrate on the Christmasy end of the holiday spectrum, a season of wishing. when i was a kid, it was wishing – with an ache and excitement so pure i can still nearly taste it almost thirty years later – for some cherished marvel carefully selected from the […]

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Tuesday, December 11th, 2007

whose woods are these

i had to drive today, for work, an hour westward and back in the sparkling cold of a sunny December morning. i forget that i live on a beautiful piece of earth. i live my life these days between my house and the sitter’s house and the campus i work on, with occasional forays to […]

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Saturday, December 8th, 2007

this is my friend

sometimes i imagine we are a thousand years old. i have no record to show otherwise. in photographic testimony of the past near-twenty months, Dave and i are only props, background to The Child. and i am happy enough with that, because time, she has been catching up these late years. grief and fear and […]

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Tuesday, December 4th, 2007

snow day

when i was a little girl, elementary-school age, i went to bed every single night all winter long fantasizing about two things…two magical overnight transformations. the first involved me waking up with long, flowing locks of hair – preferably curly – instead of my real-life mushroom cut, which made me look rather like someone had […]

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Saturday, December 1st, 2007


right on cue, straight from December’s central casting, we had snow today, making the leftover pumpkin in my back porch look suddenly very out of place indeed. winter has begun. it is the beginning of the dark season, of the advent creep through the darkness – through the wonderful, bare-bones nadir of solstice – back […]

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