Archive for May, 2008

Friday, May 30th, 2008

the cook, the list, the wife and a lover

i have this list.  it involves things i like to fantasize that i will do in order to make myself more sane, more human, more humane…just more.  it evolves, changes daily sometimes.  more frequently, it gets shoved to the back of my mental clutter drawer, ignored until some trigger calls it forward, calls it back […]

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Tuesday, May 27th, 2008

out out

i’ve never really been an outdoorsy sort. my childhood memories of the delights of nature mostly involve being cold, or damp, or slightly unsure of what to do with myself.  i had an aversion to bugs, and other than my grandmother’s ancient raspberry bushes – which yielded more bugs than berries in any case – […]

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Saturday, May 24th, 2008

aye, there’s the rub

every morning since last Monday, Oscar has slept past seven o’clock. this is a first…a sort of shocking, oh sweet merciful Jeebus thankyou kind of first, one his father and i – mostly me – have spent the last two years sacrificing small imaginary goats to the gods for.   Dave will say he’s something […]

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Tuesday, May 20th, 2008


i may have, erm, mentioned that i went to see Leonard Cohen the other night.  i may have mentioned i was going in a wheelchair.  i may have made some flippant, agist cracks about how he’d probably find me more alluring that way, anyway.  and how i was gonna get me a little Children’s Wish […]

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Sunday, May 18th, 2008

the Blog’Ers

they’re still there, gathered in overstuffed chairs and a greater cacophony of chintz patterns and floral fabrics than i ever imagined could exist in one room, possibly with a fire going, talking.  and talking.  and talking.  some more than others, though (ahem) perhaps the quieter souls are getting their turn more frequently now that i’m […]

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Friday, May 16th, 2008

okay, shoe, go ahead and drop

…Bon enters stage left, peers around with puzzlement, as if expecting something to fall from the sky… then lies down. she smiles tentatively, then looks up again sharply, suspiciously, and scans overhead.   she bundles herself into a small ball, looking very content…but most uncertain about this odd state of affairs.  ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ after my u/s appointment, […]

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Thursday, May 15th, 2008

the sisters of mercy

….they are not departed or gone they were waiting for me when i said that i just can’t go on and they brought me their comfort and later they brought me this song… – Leonard Cohen yesterday afternoon, after my (lollipopless) doctor’s appointment and Oscar’s (also lollipopless, how cold is that?) trip to the audiologist […]

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Wednesday, May 14th, 2008

madness descends

looky, looky mommy…that lady’s gone shack-wacky! this is what the shrill little kiddie voices in my head have started saying.  it worries me.  when even the most tender and inexperienced of your personal imaginary voices notice that you’re stark raving mad a little peculiar these days, perhaps you need to get out more. i’ve become […]

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Sunday, May 11th, 2008

on Thisbe, on Mother’s Day

it would be easy to say my mother never really knew her mother. she was an only child, my mom, born to parents in their hardscrabble thirties in a postwar town that never quite boomed. her folks had long before given up on babies, but she came anyway, a surprise, a little black-haired come-by-chance with […]

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Friday, May 9th, 2008

heeerre’s Bonnie!

i think i know now why i blog. the company’s good and the outlet is needed, and appreciated, sure.  but they’re not the primary reason.  turns out blogging is the only thing keeping me from having to face the stark fact that i am actually, secretly, an incoherent twit.  yep.  oh, the shame.  i blog […]

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