Archive for September, 2008

Tuesday, September 30th, 2008

end of the beginning

the last day of September already. this month brought her to us, and its close makes me sentimental, wary, resistant…as if the turn of the calendar might make her vanish, too, ephemeral, something only dreamed. perhaps it is because she is my last baby, and i know this smallness will never be granted me again. […]

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Friday, September 26th, 2008

big brother is watching

i didn’t realize he’d suddenly seem so HUGE. i didn’t realize how ambivalent i’d feel about that, about his seemingly shocking catapult leap from my baby to this…boy. this boy, this big, solid, willful boy with a sweet streak who’s coping with the arrival of his sibling relatively gracefully, really, but also bringing out the […]

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Monday, September 22nd, 2008

gonna buy you a mockingbird

babybird she doesn’t need much. milk, Zantac for her nasty, nasty reflux, diapers, a warm chest to cuddle into. she wears her brother’s preemie-size handmedowns for now, mostly blue…though kind friends and family have ensured she will have more pink than i ever dreamed of to grow into once she gets out of doll-sized clothing. […]

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Saturday, September 20th, 2008

Josephine at ten days old

her cord fell off today the dry stump a husk, just a thing to shed its final thread hung sticky, stretched and shining in the morning light alien, untouchable Other for a heartbeat i watched it, enthralled unable to bring myself to pull away that last tangible proof that we once had a lifeline, she […]

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Friday, September 19th, 2008

the new baby blues

…actually, i don’t have ’em, those blues. what i have is something…unfamiliar. (ducks, peers about waiting for rotten tomatoes to materialize from the wings. gazes earnestly at audience). i feel like i’ve had the blues…baby blues…for four years now. or maybe fourteen, if we’re counting the general standard-issue blues…maybe twenty. the low-grade depressive feeling that […]

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Monday, September 15th, 2008

got a ticket for my destination

my Posey girl. you came home yesterday, four days old. we were greedy, all a-clamour for early release, but by late Friday we had to admit that you had the orangey glow of an aging Beach Boy. you wore it with grace, kiddo, but had to spend 36 hours on the little tanning bed in […]

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Friday, September 12th, 2008

peek a boo

a little late, but our first snuggle, with somebody checking out the view. Daddy’s got a few more pics on flickr if you click through…mama and baby are stuck in the hospital (where there is one sad little ancient non-SD-card processing public computer in the basement) for at least another day while Posey learns to […]

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Wednesday, September 10th, 2008

pocket full of Posey

she will be Posey, at least here and for as long as Oscar struggles with the letter J. her name is Josephine Eleanor Maud…the Josephine for Dave’s brother who died 19 years ago this September, the Eleanor and Maud for my grandmothers…with Maud also, smilingly, a nod to Maud Montgomery and Anne of Green Gables, the child’s […]

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Wednesday, September 10th, 2008

Dave breaks into the blog – All is well

We are 95% on the name but I’m going to leave that particular conversation to bonnie when she gets near a computer. Mother is well… very well actually. The labour was 16 1/2 hours… but manageable, and, in places, alot of fun. Our little girl is perfect, with a clean bill of health and the […]

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Tuesday, September 9th, 2008

the punch line

um, i am heading to the hospital.  nine hours before scheduled cerclage removal. my water broke. thanks for all the love that has brought us safe thus far…will keep you posted.

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